At the beginning of July, I spoke quite hesitantly about a six months shopping hiatus. Nearly two months in, I thought it was time for an update.
The cold hard truth – what I bought
It felt a bit like as soon as I was talking about a hiatus, I started panicking. This is always the way for me – before it gets better, it gets worse. It’s one of the reasons that I don’t like committing to restrictions and limits. I did ok for a week or so – pathetic I know, but it is what it is – then I was confronted with various sales. I skipped the Monsoon sale but Oasis got the better of me, probably because I was starting to feel cocky as I had done so well not to buy anything in Monsoon.
In Oasis I bought four items: two skirts, one pair of slim trousers and a vest top. I certainly had no need to buy anything at all but I have to say I don’t regret these purchases. I love everything I bought and have worn everything already. However, I did feel like I let myself down by not even lasting a couple of weeks.
The month of July continued badly – it was my birthday which meant a) I was feeling the one year older blues and b) I had some cash to throw around. This combination pretty much lead to the purchase of another pair of trousers, one top, four pairs of shoes, one dress and one skirt.
I actually didn’t feel like I was doing too badly but when you put it like this, in black and white, the numbers are quite appalling. Eight garments and four pairs of shoes in one month? Mother of god.
Now to the tiny bit of positive news, which is that during August I did no clothes shopping what so ever. I do feel the urge to explore what’s new for autumn, but so far I’ve successfully resisted. This may also be partly due to the fact that I’ve been redecorating my “room” which had become the dumping ground for all my overshopping. Not only have I been concentrating most of my energy and time on making this room nice and habitable again, I’ve also been through a painful clearout. And it isn’t over yet. I could easily get rid of double, maybe triple the clothes that have so far left my closet. This seems so daunting that I have to take it slowly or it will never be done. I have let go of three big bags of clothes so far (I didn’t count the number of items, but maybe 35 to 40 would be a decent guess), which isn’t a lot but it feels like a start after a number of years of holding on to EVERYTHING. Some of these were too bad to pass on to anyone, but some were snapped up by a friend of mine who loves fashion but doesn’t have a lot of money to spend, and the rest went into the donation box. I was very pleased about my friend taking some of my cast offs – I don’t like waste and it certainly feels wasteful to get rid of items which are in good condition, just because I have to, as the clutter is overwhelming me, physically and mentally.
To be honest, I have no idea what comes next. Will it be a no shopping September? I would love it to be, but temptation to go out and look for autumn clothes is killing me. I am trying to come up with some genuinely interesting things to do at evenings and weekends in order to distract, distract, distract, but this is proving difficult, expensive and tiring. I feel exhausted trying to come up with different ways to combat the boredom. Shopping just seems so much easier but I think I finally understand that in the long run, it resolves nothing. I’ve certainly tried very hard for very long, but I think I’ve finally reached this point:
“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” – Albert Einstein
Here’s to sanity. 🙂